Its been two weeks now since I stopped all of my snooping activities. It was difficult at first, but the result is that I actually feel better about where I am and the efforts that I am making to keep improving myself.
At this time it is not about saving my marriage, it is totally about me being a person that my wife can find no fault with. The only blemish will be my past, and the more distance that I can put between that and the current form of me the better.
The last week has actually been pretty good. Much more interaction between me and my wife post Mother's Day. (all of it initiated by my wife). She invited me to go with her to a work function at her bosses house this past Friday. (The OM was not there, he is too far down the org chart to be invited) I made sure that I talked to as many of my wifes co-workers etc as possible. Was upbeat and made sure that I left a good impression with everyone. Wife seemed to enjoy having me there, but who knows/cares.
Today wife and I spent a couple of hours together shopping and looked at buying a new TV. Wife wants to get a PVR so I suggested that we upgrade to a new one. She seemed pretty excited about getting one and talked about it being a great purchase for the family. Tonight we all watched a movie together and my wife was very talkative towards me, something which I haven't seen alot lately.
I found out yesterday that a co-worker of mine is separated. She found out last October that her husband was cheating on her. In her mind, that was it, the marriage was over. She is moving on with her life. She said that it was hard on her two young daughters but feels that she did the right thing. She asked me out for lunch so that we can compare stories in more detail. Just hearing briefly about what she went through was very helpful for me.
Will see what this week brings. Good thing that I like rollercoasters.
