I understand all of what is happening with her and I know she is in much more pain than I will ever know or understand.
There is a lack of peace and fulfillment. You can do all you want for yourself and live your life the best way you can...
But there is still a lack.
A void.
And that is just sharing your life with someone.
That is the honest answer deep down.
Even though I have not been doing this for as long as you Gritter, this is what I am struggling with as well.
I was unable to put it into words, but you have done so very well (as usual).
Denver
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce