Your fears of OM are, as you know, making you behave in a way that increases the chances of him being around.
I think a lot of times our fear based behavior ends up creating the very reality we are most afraid of and right now you have a likely example of that.
You know where the head goes, the heart will, eventually, follow.
Keep your head on straight and man up with some dang discipline. If things don't work out at least it won't be b/c you couldn't listen to her and back the heck off.
And you have more than the 2 naked options as has been pointed out. You can drop the rope and live your life well, Period. I can't wait for her to discover how OM is over time, with SS and real life. She may need to explorer that to figure out how great you are.
She knows how to find you when the time comes,
These words sure spoke to me in light of my situation!! Thanks 25yearsmlc
