Oh yes, very confused. He acknowledges that Sanderika. He knows he is unhappy but he doesn't know what to do to make it better. He has reconnected with ow once again. He knows that this path didn't bring him happiness; he articulated that but it's still the path he has chosen. Perhaps it's easier? Perhaps she is just filling the void until he can determine what the real action should be? Who knows? This is much bigger than I am!
I love him and you know, I can feel the love and care he has for me but he knows and I know that it's not enough for now. He's too scared to drop ow and fully commit to me for whatever reasons... they may be revealed as time goes on.
I can feel the pain he is experiencing and this has been a huge lesson for me; a lesson in love. I can sit beside him in his pain but I can't do this part of the journey for him. He has to sort it out for himself. he knows I am there but as a loving friend not as a sometimes partner. I have to let go and trust that this will all come to a happy and peaceful solution. He is not the partner I need atm. He certainly is someone I love but not someone I can build a future with at this stage. Ow needs to be well gone, he needs to indicate that he wants to work on things wholeheartedly and be committed to loving and growing together as aprt of a family.
