Mission 25. I Really Mean it this time>

[ninelives]

Nice analogy 25: Russian roulette indeed. I didnt look at him a lot but I did look at him maybe 5 times. Hard to imagine my W with him really but reality can be stranger than fiction.

Had no intentions of picking up but there was open flirting behaviour at times although at one point , blonde teacher aske if "everything was ok", I must have had a moment of intensity on my face. When i am deep in thought, my brow furrors and it looks like i am upset. Used to drive my W nuts.

Late night , early morning . I did get home around 4 a.m. Little night cap but nothing happened. Not willing to go down that path right now but okay with the flirting for now.

Didnt have much to drink and won a game of texas holdem so it was an ok night.

OMW: NOt sure if I have my power back but I think I'll be fine. It was a truly a test to see if I could be in the same room with OM and gage my level of IDK, sadness, anger. Not sure, but although there was an initial jolt, it faded as the night progressed and we were only there for about an hour.

This will get back to her , no doubt and I dont care how she reacts to this. Im really convinced that she will regret her decisions down the road.

BTW, before all this drama with her sister and the fishing incident.

She was on my side when I first told her about her sister's tirade.


I mentioned that her sister called me every name in the book and said I was lazy, useless etc..

Wife responded in text with/


W: Ive been doing a lot of thinking lately and I dont think you are lazy or useless.

(Then all the crap with her sister and my role in it etc,, and that nice senitment quickly went south)

Ive had NO contact with her today whatsoever and I think I will keep it that way.

Feeling okay today with episodes of missing her but the intensity is less.

Positive and forward, 25 style. I do wish that she moved to another town though. That would surly makes things easier.

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