The Lies and Deception Killing Me

[abbey1989]

Thank you 25 and Starsky.

I very much appreciate different points of view! I know I need a kick in the pants from time to time. Sometimes this comes from folks on this forum and sometimes it come from my DB coach and sometimes I pull it from within.

I feel my personality has NOT served me well in many aspects of my life. I've aways been a bit of a shy, reserved person (at least outwardly... he he), happy NOT to be the center of attention - EVER. The biggest thing I ever did to work on that was to take a public speaking class last summer. THE MOST TERRIFYING THING I'VE EVER DONE. But I did it and passed with B. I know I can rise to any challenge!

My most important challenge obviously is with H and how to stay strong for me and my kids and to not let all of H's indiscretions poison my life. I have lost a few good years to the poison. The sad thing is...I think H really thinks he is pulling the wool over my eyes.

I struggle to take the high road. To not snoop when all I want to do is snoop. To not drive by OW jobsite to catch H there with her....you know. NOT A PRETTY PICTURE.

So, I thank you all for caring. Really!!!

xo, Abbey