Rollercoaster of love

[LearningPatience]

My GAL activities have not only been keeping me super busy, but they seem to be getting me back to the person I was before meeting W; actually an even better version of that person.

Started last bit of siding work on W's (our) house yesterday. Been dreading it a bit, not for the work but for the feelings that I don't belong at the house anymore. Didn't feel that way at all once I got there, it felt completely natural. I was also hoping not to run into W, but she came home for lunch while I was working. It was nice to take a break and talk to her, very pleasant and friendly. She went off after lunch to take a certification test for work, I tore off more siding, and she came back two hours later. I'd worn myself out by then, so I left (without offering or accepting a hug, I was work slimy by then). W initiated a couple of text/IM conversations, but we seemed to keep missing each other. No biggie.

Went to party/bonfire last night where I only knew a couple of people. Met several other people and talked to them for a couple of hours. If I hadn't had a race this morning I would have stayed longer. It was fun to meet and open up to new people (maybe a 90 instead of 180, I can be social but am shy around new people).

Ran a 5K this morning in 24 something. Several times I felt like giving up, but wouldn't let myself...kinda like the whole DBing thing

Now, finding something to do with my boys this afternoon/evening that doesn't involve movement by me...

While I'm pretty confident that W and I will eventually get back together, I'm very confident that I'll be ok no matter what. I'm turning into that person that only a fool would leave. OK, minus the hubris, but you know what I mean. The trick now is to remember this on those inevitable days when life catches up to me.