So gave H the book and he looks at it and said he is not reading it. He has not known that I had the book. I told him that he is going to need help with this and this book has helped me a lot.
I told him he has no clue what he is in for. He tells me I know I don't I am very scared. I told him well I am not. He was shocked, I said why would I be scared I do it all right now on my own. The only thing that will be missing is him from the picture when I move out. Right now we sleep in separate beds so I wont miss that I told him. I also told him I am not going to make this easy on him. He is not going to be getting everything he thinks he is. Right now it is totaly drop all talking to him unless it is about my kids.
He tells me he wants to take me to surgery. I ask why and he said because he does I said is it out of guilt that you want to take me. I need some one that is going to be with me to hold my hand and that is something you said you will not do. Have not made my mind up about if I have him take me or not.
