We had dinner tonight.....as friends and I felt really uncomfortable because I knew that ow had been there. It was a real awakening for me. It suddenly hit me that I don't want it to be like this.
We had an incredibly frank conversation about him and what he went through with the MLC and he listened to my thoughts and agreed to much of what I said and made additional comments. He was really thoughtful about it all....I've never seen him like this before.
He acknowledged that he was not happy in his current situation and that he was the only one that could change that.He also acknowledged that what he really wanted was right there all along but at the time he thought he could find that happiness with someone else.
When I left we hugged really tightly and he apologised once again for all he's put me through. Changes are definitely occurring but I can't leave myself in this vulnerable position. I need more than to be an occasional 'friend' and when I get anxious I don't think I show myself in my best light either.
