Sigh... did pretty well yesterday and then crashed with a wallow in "WHY is this happening to MEEEEEE" self-pity. Ah well. Sister is coming in tonight which should help with my PMA considerably (she'll kick my butt if I wallow too much).
I'm still not really sure what sort of attitude I should have to W; should I initiate contact? Be casual about returning messages? Should I be expediting or resisting the D paperwork? I certainly don't want a D, but if it has to happen I'd like it to be over soon... sorta. I just wish there was some way to UNDERSTAND THIS, but understanding is very far away indeed.
My beautiful sweet lady! Where has she gone? As one of my female friends put it, "honey, she hasn't been a lady about this in a very long time." But it's so hard for me to believe we were laughing and playing and even attempting a kiss again just days before she walked out.
