hoping for change, That was a powerful message/article. Thanks.
I am afraid that my H may become suicidal again like the last time he left. The article kind of scares me, since I know this has occured to my brother but he came through and reached out for help. I am not so sure my H has the character to do that.
My M-I-L said to me last weekend, "We know he was suicidal in the past, you need to move on and live your life to the fullest, and we can not help but worry when he see's you loving your new life -maybe even a new man- that he will most likely commit suicide when he wakes up too late".
Those were his MOMS words to me. Pretty scary. I know she wasn't trying to scare me into NOT moving on, as she cant believe I have hung on and stood as long as I have.It was more of her own awareness of the situation coming out verbally. She is very supportive and a chief nurse at the hostipal she works at and is very smart. I tend to think she is right. I cant help but to be scared. When my H would get drunk in the past - he would start saying : get me a rope, tie me up, wheres a gun...etc.
I would tell my H that suicide is a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem - and that things will change in time and get better (that's the health teacher in me, I guess). He really liked that slogan and had repeated to me a few times this past year. TIPPER
