25 yrs, young at heart
Your support specially in the last 24 hours has been really appreciated.

25yrs:

I get my reality checks from you, you remind me of what is unacceptable, and have helped me stand up for myself. By helping me see how outrageous some of her behavior is, I gain the strength to set the boundaries we need.

Young at heart

You have shown me a completely different way of loving, my W. When I am about to lose it, you also put things into perspective, but you bring me back to loving her.

The advise from the both of you has brought me to a hopefully healthier center.

Unfortunately I feel like I am going WAS myself right now. It's like the vampire hunter who has been bitten and can slowly feel himself transforming.

I thought about the last two weeks, and why they were so great. She was on her period, so sex was not an issue. Once this was removed it allowed us to really make progress we were together because we liked to spend time with each other. She didn't feel the need for sex, and then the disgust of not wanting me. When she was on her period, she didn't worry about sex so she could be herself, and get close. Once she could have sex again, she probably got the urge whenever I would get close, and as young at heart has mentioned, picks fights because she herself does not understand how she feels.

On the other hand, this is the third time in the last three months that she goes nuts after her period is over, and she can have sex again. Last night I tried approaching us getting help, she didn't want to hear it. This really frustrated me, the fight that ensued afterwards made things worse.

I am left wondering is she willing to pitch in her part?

I just don't feel anymore that she ever was, and doubt that she ever will.

God knows I want her to!

I keep taking her reluctance to leave as a good sign, her reluctance to actually work on this is a bad sign.

She actually made me a smoothie as we were fighting a few minutes ago, I love her smoothies, and I let her know it was delicious, this seemed to put her in a good mood. She likes it when I love her food. Is this that sign I was asking for? Maybe..... Is this sign enough to keep me from going WAS myself....I don't know.