True, sweetie, you know we are pushing you because we care about you.
Deciding to end your marriage and finding someone to fill a void should be two completely separate things.
One of the reasons is that you are still in love with your wife. You still have some unresolved issues there. Not a fair way to start a new relationship, ya know?
You still need to deal with some stuff - the anger, the sadness, the wanting.
You are a special man, T.
Take your time. Hash it out. Pray some, if you are so inclined.