Power of Prayer...........This is Worth the Read!

[glamgirl]

Dolphin thanks for stopping by. This journey is so difficult on many many levels.

The problem is we are so hurt, angry, resentful towards our spouses that a reconciliation could never be possible without the forgiveness or healing from the inside.

I thought I forgave my spouse. I spoke that out loud. I said I forgave him, but really I hadn't. I wanted to, but I didn't know how. So when he would come visit, I still had all of that inside me and it showed.

It wasn't until God healed me from the inside that I truly understood what forgiveness was and I knew at that moment everything awful was gone. I could look at my life for what it was and that necessarily wasn't a bad thing. God allowed me to accept my life and my h despite all that had transpired. Now that didn't mean I wanted him home, what that meant was I was finally free for the first time in years to move forward with whatever way God had planned for my life.

I also always saw life very black and white. I thought we had this great family life, in love with each other, and this was going to be our fairy tale to the end. After I was healed that all changed and I could so clearly look at my own self and see my part in the downfall of the marriage. Now, that didn't give my h cart blanche to cheat, move out etc, but God have us free will and that was my h's free will to handle things the way he felt he needed to handle them.

I can see things so much more clearly now. The difference now though, is my h and I are grounded with God. We are allowing God to guide and direct our decisions today. Even though I was walking this journey with God, he hadn't healed me at that point so my actions and behavior was from my flesh and emotions, not from God if that makes sense.

Today I have a new found zest for life and have real hope and faith for the restoration of our marriage. God bless you Dolphin.