I know you have followed my thread. Every word. And if what I say has any benefit to anyone here then my typing one letter was worth it.
It is hard to see people here who tell you things and then see that their own situation doesn't seem to get there.
My W is NOT your W. And you are NOT me.
I don't know what is going to happen in my M.
I really don't.
I struggle just like everyone here does. I am just a little further down the road. I have my own beliefs and idealogy that has been forged by the fire I have lived that is here on these boards.
I am struggling right now with my will. My will to continue this fight in the face of adversity.
I have been here before. It just seems that the time is weighing on me.
That is no one's fault but mine. My perception of time. And each person has his own.
If you ask me? I see a heck of a lot more to be hopeful about for you than I have right now. But that means nothing Denver.
I have been divorced and it is the most painfull thing I have ever expereinced in my life. Maybe that is why I am willing to go furhter this time.
I am not telling you to compromise yourself and your sanity or anything that is harmful to you.
The pain you suffer in the while of this is NOTHING to the regret you may feel the rest of your life.
There is no greener only different grass.
Put EVERYTHING you have toward this until you have no more.
I am telling you as man who has been through it.
You WILL regret any effort you leave behind in yourself.
Do it.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
