W called me tonight and wanted to know if I picked up my SD from school today. I wasnt supposed to, but that's besides the point.
I told her no, and asked if she needed me to. She said no, but she knew I was off today and that sometimes I pick her up early from afterschool care.
This is true, but I haven't done so in a while, but that is also beside the point.
She said she was just wondering how her field trip was today and wanted to talk to her. I told her that her mom was picking her up from school, and that me and her dad were going to a church event tonight. She said ok, and that she would call her mom later. I asked if she needed anything else, which she didn't, and I told her I would talk to her later, and ended the convo.
I am nit reading anything into her contacting me, just noting that it is out of the ordinary for her lately.
When SD came home tonight, she was very excited to see me, then sat in the chair with me for 5 minutes. It was nice that she did that, made me feel loved by her. Then later, I looked through her back pack and saw her composition book. On the front of it she wrote the following names: mom, dogs name, islander, dad, OM!!!!!, SS, friend, friend.
It made me feel really hurt that she wrote OM name on her book. I can't even imagine how confused she is right now. She goes from acting very nice and loving, to mean and angry like a light switch. Her mom is really damaging her, and she is so thick in the fog she can't even see it. And there's nothing I can even do. And to top it off, we just found out she has a school play in two weeks. I asked SD if she had any plays a couple of weeks ago, and her grandmother asked her a couple of days ago, to which she replied no. Then mil found out yesterday she has a play in two weeks. WTF. She was always so excited and wanted all of her family at her plays. Now she doesn't want anybody.
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M:34 W:28 SD:9 D:6 (pr) M:3 T:6 Separated 1/16/11 ILYBNILWY 10/25/10 PA discovered 11/12/10, began about 10/1/10
I am not who I was, I am being remade, I am new...