25 - thank you so much for your comments, insight and support. I have so much to say right now but I am so physically and emotionally exhausted that I need to go to sleep asap. I will post in the morning. Just wanted to make sure I acknowledged the support of everyone - as it seems EVERYBODY I talk to (in person) tells me how great divorce is and that I should just move on as (according to them) I will be happier (b/c clearly THEY know what would make me happy ergg). So for now, I am going to bed feeling completely sorry for myself as nobody is here to see me wallow Oh and for the record, I booked a stress seminar/spa thing tonight - trying to GAL and do something for myself - with some of my mama friends etc and alas they did not have time to do my pedicure as they overbooked the spa, so I am totally having a private pity party right now. just wanted a darn foot rub.. aghh Off to bed - will post in the AM. And again - thank you all.