Rysmom this might help to illistrate the change. Prior to my healing when my h would stop by I would barely give him a hello. I also would spend much of the time when he was visiting with the kids on my computer or watching tv avoiding him at best. I also would just think to myself can't wait until he leaves and then never walk him to the door when he left.
Once I was healed when h would stop over I would greet him at the door with a huge smile, greeting, and hug. It was like how are you h, what's new. Can I get you something to eat. Gosh it is so good to see you. Like we were old friends and I enjoyed seeing him and I had a new found love for him.
I know, this all probably sounds odd but this is what happens when God heals you and takes away all the hurt, pain, suffering inside you. It's such an amazing feeling.
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"