Also Rysmom it was the healing from God that changed me. I had no more reason to send a mean text to my h and trust me I sent so many. Once God healed me from the past, my life changed dramatically. I didn't have anymore hatrid for my h. I looked at him as a very broken man that needs God in his life.
It's hard for me to describe this complete healing. It's like all that consumed me about h, ow, what we lost, our marriage it was like gone. I had no bad feelings about anything anymore. That healing from God is what opened the door for restoration of our marriage.
I just asked God to help me and boom I was healed.
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"