I intend to live forever - so far, so good

[ClingingToHope]

Tough night with the girls. I may have to skip the early morning workouts on Wednesday because I'm very tired at night and don't have energy when they are over. When I don't have energy, I don't have patience.

D8 had three separate meltdowns. The last at 2 a.m. after she wet herself.

For the first time the small house became an issue. She didn't want to sleep in her room -- too hot. She didn't want to sleep with D12 in my room because D12 thrashes around too much.

Those were her options because the couch was wet. So at 2 a.m., she wanted to go home. Now, some may think this is wrong, but I have not given in once when they get upset and say "I want to go to mom's."

Once you give in on that then they have a hammer to hold over you -- kind of like the divorce threat.

My night is my night unless there are extraordinary circumstances.

Anyway, it was 2:45 a.m. before she calmed down enough to go to sleep.

She was fine getting her to school today, but I'm crossing my fingers she makes it through the day OK.

I texted STBXW that D8 had three meltdowns in case she has a bad day and the school calls.

Lord, she is trying at times. Of course, I also had some D12 issues to deal with. She's gained a tremendous amount of weight and I'm phasing in only healthy foods and phasing out the bad stuff.

D12 knows what I'm doing and she's not happy. She wants to look better, but she doesn't really know how to do it.

I am really looking forward to summer -- but there are going to be a lot of struggles.

Interesting, I felt really "neutral" toward STBXW yesterday. Between the various jobs, finances, the girls, the house and daily activities, there really isn't much time to think about STBXW.