Ok, so we are both very excited about the move, we can't wait. We keep talking about all the things that we will do. I just dropped close to 4k on two bicycles, so we can get around. (Where we are going cars are really a nuisance).
While at the shop, the guy said we would get a lot of use for the bikes where we are going, and even more afterwards. I said well afterwards I could try to get us overseas again. She got really excited at this idea, I would like that too.
Things were going great, and we went out to dinner. While at dinner I start talking about what we could do 3 years down the line to make sure we get a good duty station. Things were going well, until she said "I don't want to talk about this anymore, I just don't want to get your hopes up. I don't know right now if were going to make it that far, so I'd rather not think about it."
OUCH!
I should have known better, I guess. With all the excitement, we have been both feeling about the near future, I guess I got a little carried away and started talking about the far future. I initiated future and R talk without realizing it. (doh!)
It was also a big reminder of how difficult the sitch is. She is still not convinced that my changes are forever, and still wonders if she will feel the same 1, 2, 5, 10 years down the line. Just another reminder to keep DBing, keep doing 180's and not to slide back... WAW syndrome hit her hard, and she is still not in the clear apparently.
As soon as she said this all I said was, "I understand how you feel, and it's no problem. All I can do is keep living life and enjoy the time we DO have together." Then she made a joke about me spending too much time with her... We tried to both laugh it off, and after a few minutes of awkwardness managed to have a good dinner.
We laughed and had a good time the rest of the evening, although I could tell she was a little more distant. Need to redouble DB.
