Oh I am willing to take a beating....I know I have beat myself up enough over it. You are correct about the self loathing. I really hate myself.
Hoping for a positive trip to the MC tomorrow evening. Still nervous and apprehensive about it. Not that I dont know want to go but because she was so adpt to go with me. I am worried that she isnt going to use this as a way to heal out M, but as a way to prepare me for the D. Is this valid or am I just assuming again.
