85 Days

[Denver_2010]

Update...

I called my SS at around 5 to see how school was for him. He was with W and they were driving to the hospital to see SIL and new baby. I asked SS to ask W if she had plans to go out with the girls tonight (she does this a couple of times per month on Wednesdays). She said no. I told SS that I would talk to them later.

I called W about an hour later to see if she and SS wanted to come over for dinner. W told me that she wanted to hang with her brother and his W bc this is their last night in town. She said that she thought that they were planning dinner at her mom's house, but that she hadn't heard back from anyone. So she didn't know what was going on for sure. I told her that if she ended up not doing that, to let me know. She then said that she'd let me know what the plan is when she found out if I wanted to go eat dinner at her mom's for dinner. I said okay.

A little while later W texted me and said that she still hadn't heard anything about dinner plans but that I could head over to the hospital if I wanted. I didn't get the message for about 20 minutes. I responded that I would head over and meet her.

When I got to the hospital, W was sitting in a chair holding new nephew. She smiled at me as I walked in. I walked over to her and kissed her on the forehead and said 'hello'. She seemed receptive to this. SS and niece were excited to see me. They wanted me to take them out in the lobby to play, which I did for a while.

At this point, W became distant from me again. We hung out at the hospital for about an hour and then headed to her mom's house to eat. W was distant from me there too.

After dinner, I started W's car for her bc it is snowing and cold here tonight. After few minutes of saying goodbye's to BIL and his W, I hugged W and told her goodnight.

The distance thing with W was weird tonight. She seemed distant, but whenever something funny was said, she would look over at me smiling. But when I tried to talk to her she was short and seemed uninterested in having a conversation with me.

There is an anger, bitterness, or annoyance that I am causing W right now. I can't quite put my finger on it, nor do I understand why it is happening.

W and I have tickets to go see U2 in less than 2 weeks. We are suppose to spend the day partying, see the concert and then stay at the Ritz Carlton that night. I have trouble seeing this happen with how uncomfortable it is bw us right now. But then again, it wasn't weird on Mother's Day... Her mood changes with me seems to change often... and it can be in the matter of a few minutes.

I don't know what to do about this. It is hard to be around my W right now. I will say that.

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