Power of Prayer...........This is Worth the Read!

[glamgirl]

Sunshine I love that tearing off the roof. After I was filled with the Holy Spirit I wanted to shout from the rooftops God is awesome.

Snow, God has a mysterious way of handling our lifes problems and we may never know why or how, but you are right ow's death was so unexpected but it also allowed for the healing to begin for h and I.

Lorie I love that daily devotional. Expecially that last statement trust me, and watch to see what I will do.

[glamgirl]

This is interesting scripture,

We are told not to look at the past, but press forward towards the future! Philippians 3:13, "...this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,"

Once God healed me from the bitterness, anger, resentment etc I couldn't look in the past anymore. I could only look forward. I don't know how to describe it, but it was as if the past didn't exist anymore. I guess this is why it is so easy now to have a DO OVER with my h, because I really can't remember the past 4 years. God can really heal our marriages, but only if it's his will and on his timing.

[rysmom]

Glam
It crossed my mind today to go to a mediator with h and come to a settlement on our assets. I feel that i can't live in limbo anymore. Im afraid im going to get physically sick if i continue to live like this much longer. I don't know if i could trust h ever again even if he came back and probably would effect my health too. Im not real young anymore.

[angel61]

Glam girl, reading your posts are such a lifesaver.

[glamgirl]

Rysmom you have do what you need to do for your life. I had gotten to a good place in my life and felt I wasn't really in limbo other than filing for a D. Then in walks h. I wasn't really feeling the marriage anymore and actually didn't even want my h home.

The great thing that happened on this journey is I joined a gym and got really fit in 3 years. I went from a size 12 to a size 4. Now I feel young, fit and healthy way better than my h, but he is working on that now too.

What I am saying Rysmom is God can restore what was lost. Trust me on that one. I am a different person and can accept what happened as the past and God has asked me not to look back, but look to him and the future. It really is a beautiful thing. So don't worry about the trust, it can be restored. What is God wanting you to do?

Angel I am so glad you have been touched by the reading here. I know how difficult this journey is and if I could give hope to others then this post served it's purpose.

[Lorie1964]

I just wanted to give God the Glory and tell you all what has happened to me today. I had knee surgery back in September and thankfully my insurance covers all except about $700 then I lost my job a week after H left and I have been paying on it and got it down to $500. Today, I emailed the Dr and asked him if he could forgive the debt as I just could not even make the $50 monthly payment anymore. I prayed for a week before I sent that email and he emailed me back tonight and said he would take care of the debt in the morning! God is so awesome and so is my Dr. I just had to share and give God his praise and glory for directing me to do this. I have never asked anyone to forgive a debt before and I was very nervous and had to put my pride aside to do so.

Blessings to you all!

[glamgirl]

Oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh praise God Lorie what a great story. Once again, shows God is still in the business of miracles today.

Reminds me of a time when we couldn't pay our mortgage. I was unemployed at the time. I just kept praying and praying and asking God what to do and how we were going to pay. Well a mysterious check showed up on our mailbox and boom we had the money to pay our mortgage.

God is so awesome we just need to have faith and believe.

[Lorie1964]

Amen Sister!!! God is an awesome God!

[rysmom]

Glam
Do you work full time? I have a problem with obsessing about h and ow and what they are doing. I only work part time now. I wish i could find more work or some kind of volunteer work to get my mind off of them. I just can't shake this depression and obsessing.
I text h today and said i dont know how u can sleep at night for how you broke your son's heart. I had a lot of anger today. I usually never say anything neg. to h. I am at my wits end over this. i wake up at 4am every morning worrying about it.

[glamgirl]

Rysmom, I lost my job about a year ago and haven't found anything since. It's ok, I just take care of the kids for now. What I did do was join a gym. So I spent my time obsessing at the gym and getting a killer body for 49.

Could you try journaling your text instead? I did the same as you and you know it really did NO good in bringing my h home. It actually makes things worse. Also, I just gave it all to God. When I was feeling down or obsessing about h I just asked God for help. I was not a good DB'er though. It seemed I could not quiet my mouth even though that was a strong message from God.

I would wake up early like that too. Try praying or when h wasn't here I would just get up and go the gym early. Pray for a good nights rest too.

I know this journey is so tough. That is why you just need to forget about your h for now, put your faith and interest in God and go out and have fun regardless of what your h is doing. I did a lot of shopping for myself. Now I didn't always spend a lot, but bought some nice clothes, VS lotions and sprays, Bath and Body Works lotions and sprays. Now I did this for me because it made me feel good. I always dressed up too, but again this was for me and built my confidence. I also spent time at the library, coffee shop etc. Just get out there and live your life, you won't regret it. I find some girl