Thank you so much for your explanations. I realize, rock bottom is different for each person.
I dont want to assume, but I do think my H is somewhere near the end stages of his crisis. We had two great years of piecing,and I felt like my old H was coming back, only to then find the third year as a complete backslide into the MLC tunnel. I got laid off and his well respected grandfather died around the same time, and my H just started back up with all the old MLC behaviors this past year, and is now continuing to run.
I was so patient and forgiving of him, we would hardly talk about his time while in the tunnel. I dont think my H ever really came out or had a rock bottom, rather he just saw me moving on too quickly and got scared he would lose me forever.
No one that I explain it to understand the MLC thing. They all just see my H as a complete immature selfish a**-hole and want me to move on. I am afraid I am starting to feel the same way. The last few months we were together I was walking on egg-shells and felt very disrespected. When I would explain that to my H, he would blow up and turn the finger at me. He was ragefull (even kicked our dog), intorverted, depressed, egotistical, and mostly DRUNK. I felt my life spiralling down with his.
He refuses help from friends and family right now and is avoiding them. I just dont know if I should stand anymore, I am losing hope and faith that our M could ever get turned around. I know I deserve way better than what I had been getting. I am competely devestated, after DBing for so long and trying my hardest to please this man, only to find him running away again. I am so lost, standing might be unhealthy for me - but I dont know how to give up on the man I love so much. TIPPER
