Start to finish 2 1/2 yrs The last 6 months were coming out of it slowly. depression was there for the entire time in MLC for me. I honestly don't remember 6 months to 1 yr of the journey. It was pure h@ll/pain/agony everyday I woke up. It took every ounce of energy just to complete a day. There was no energy there for anyone or anything else but me. Forgive me if my timing is off but exact time lines are vague. I tried to journal some things while I was in it but stopped due to the mass confusion which was about 100% of the time.
I read books about MLC while I was in it as I thought that is what is happening to me. I prayed for forgiveness to the people I thought hurt me. Eventually I was able to see that it was me who had to get me through this.
Rock bottom was about 1 yr 8-9 mths in. The pain seemed to start to lift after rock bottom but that day was the worst of the journey.
I think coming to terms with forgiveness was the key for me. Nobody could have helped me through it. I had to do it myself but the pain is so intense that I think people stop because of it(my opinion)
I still ask the question why do human beings have to go through this. My only answer is something inside of us (soul, being) leads you in a direction of real growth(soul growth)and it is an opportunity we all get.
The issue I have is all the destruction that is caused because a lot of people are not equipped to get through it and in turn handle what could be a time to strengthen marriages, relationships into a total debacle.
Sorry this is jumbled but I still have a hard time explaining the MLC nightmare/opportunity.
