I've been thinking a lot about the 3 hour talk with STBX. I don't think she is happy at all with her life as it is. Only a couple months ago she wanted to run away from everything and even now, says she is "stuck". I think somewhere in her heart and mind, she knows her life before was better in many ways. I know that our second life together, if we had one, could be an amazing one. We both have learned so much over the last year and a half.
So...bottom line....I am thinking about asking her to meet me to talk soon. I don't think waiting too long is a good idea. She just might make another poor decision that will make it tougher to consider my idea. I am thinking about asking her one more time to try to creat a new life together. Something so much better than we had before - based on mutual respect and understanding and a new level of honesty.
If I still get a "no", than it's definitely time to end all my efforts and start living a new life for me. I just can't do that when I think there is a possibility of saving us. At this point, I really think there is only one way to do that. Tell her to ____ or get off the pot - obviously not in those words.
