However, my brother hit a rock bottom from alcoholism & drugs about 2 years ago. And he speeks of it now and has explained it somewhat to me.
My Big brother got to a point that the alc. & drugs over took his life. He said he started to feel like everyone no longer was having fun with him as a drunk - but instead started to get upset with some of his shananagins/bullcrap. He was selling house hold items to pay for his drugs & booze, cuz my parents stopped helping him with cash flow. MY brother drank heavily for about 10 years, and every year he got deeper & deeper.
He got to a point that he was suicidal and tried to run his truck into some trees in a farm field down the road from the house we grew up in. Luckily, he text my oldest brother & I at that time for help. This was his Text, word-for-word at 4:45 am after an all night drink & drug binge: "This is my cry for help, I hate myself,I hate my life, I hate who I am, I dont know what to do but I know I dont want my life, I hate myself".
Immediately in a frantic search we found him up the road in a field next to his car. My parents then took him to the psych ward at the hostipal. From there, He was placed in rehab and stayed for impatient care for a month.
This was almost two years ago now. My brother currently goes to A.A. meetings everyday and sometimes twice a day. He is also now the chair person for the program. HE IS NOW A CHANGED MAN - happier than ever, dating a wonderful girl who he met in A.A., and wont even take cough medicine because it has alcohol in it.
Now I know that I am referring to an alchoholics rock bottom and not a MLCers Rock Bottom. But I tend to think they must be similar because they are both the lowest point in there life they can reach.
My now sober brother tells me that my H needs to hit that rock bottom, and until he does, he will continue in his ways and keep spiraling down. I am very scared right now because my H had suicidal tendicies the first time he left me. Who knows what my H's rock bottom will be, but I sure as heck hope that he gets help before doing anything crazy.
Hope this helps (maybe even just a tiny bit). TIPPER
