wife having affair - please help

[facingdivorce]

Sorry t hat was a long post and hopefully not to dense to read. I know I am acting more like Charlie Sheen winning warlock than calm cool collected. So I am breathing, I am walking, I am trying to decompress.

25 you really have me thinking hard about everything. The point about finding your forgiving nature which you didnt think existed, has set me off. I dont think I am a forgiving person and tend to be very black and white in my judgements. Of course what I am learningis that the whole situation is very grey,I have no control over and