I intend to live forever - so far, so good

[ClingingToHope]

OTM, Wii, a guy at my divorce rebuilding table -- which I'm late to -- had a good line a couple of weeks ago.

He said that I "need to get over" myself. It's yet another way of saying "move on."

I've been thinking a lot about what I can do in my time with them. I have to set as good an example as possible and I'm doing that 98 percent of the time. The 2 percent that I'm not is when I'm around STBXW.

That's the next big hurdle for me. I've crossed so much of the other stuff.

Interesting day, the executive editor of our newspaper retired. I have mixed feelings. As long as she was here, I knew I always had a job. BUT I also knew I'd never be promoted while she was here. I was in management in 2002-2003-2004 and we butted heads all the time.

So it's a mixed blessing. I could conceivably move up now once newspapers start growing again. I also could get a boss who doesn't like my come-and-go-as-I-please-so-I-can-see-my-daughters schedule.

Today was a good example. I didn't have any stories due for tomorrow and it was 90 degrees outside. So at 2:30 p.m. I headed home to see the girls and instead of coming back, we went swimming.

Not everyone will let that go.

Oh, that meant STBXW had to pick them up from my house and it was fine. The girls had fun. I had a good day.

My concern now is D12. She seriously needs to get healthier. She's going to hate it, but the weeks I have her this summer all she's going to find at the house is fruits and veggies.

Few bittersweet thoughts today. The next shoe to drop on that front is a message from L when she signs the papers. That'll be tough -- going in there and putting my name on the dotted line.