I'm still here

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Tonight my S10 & I went to dinner together and we got on the subject of prayer. I asked him if he prayed and he said yes, and we started talking about things we pray about. He told me he prays that H will come home.
Hearing that broke my heart. Especially because there is a very good possibility that may never happen.

I told him I think it's great that he prays for people, but if for some reason H doesn't come home, it doesn't have anything to do with anything he or his brother did.

I feel lower than low right now. I never truly realized how hard this was for him.