Piecing - where to go from here?

[Hurt-but-Hopeful]

Here is my original post from the newcomers board: original thread

I thought I would post over here since I think we are definitely piecing, and I'm not getting any feedback really on the newcomers board. My posts don't show up right away and get buried.

H has said that he's staying, wants to try and work on our M, go to MC, IC, whatever. I still feel like I'm in limbo. His actions have all been positive - hugs, kisses, ILY's, and he gave me a really sweet card for Mother's Day. I still feel guarded, like I don't trust that he's not going to throw his hands up and walk out. The thing I am most concerned about is he has this idea of what our ideal R would be like, but he can't really communicate what that would be like or how it would look. How can we work on a goal if I don't understand what it is he wants?

I asked him last night how he thought "we" were doing. After a few smart a** remarks and laughs, he said fine, but he didn't really expect a whole lot from "us" at the moment. I appreciate that he doesn't have unrealistic expectations and realizes it will take some time/work. On the other hand, I kinda wanted more feedback than that. He had said he lost his attraction for me and was taking a "gamble" that it would come back. I kinda wanted to see how he was feeling in that regard, since nothing else is really giving me any clues. I'm afraid to come out & ask him, because I don't know if I want to hear the answer.

I just don't know what to expect at this point. We have an appt w/ the MC on Friday, and then he goes out of town for a week. Hopefully that will clear some things up. He tends to wait to say somethings until we're in MC because he feels our therapist helps him get his point across.

Do we do anything different at this point? To those that have gone through it, what did piecing "look like" for you?