Rollercoaster of love

[LearningPatience]

My IC made me realize something in a session last week. All of the activities that W and I have been doing or have planned were previous plans from months ago. Other than my dinner invite for bday, we have not planned anything together. She expressed interest in doing a 5K with me, and I told her of one that might work, but nothing has come of it and I know I shouldn't remind her.

I broke down and sent a quick email yesterday afternoon to see how she was feeling.

Me: Hey W,
just wanted to see how you've been feeling. Hopefully you've made a doctor appointment that you can fit into your schedule. Or you're all better. Either is good. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help (like connect the yellow dots on your hands:)

(she told me that when she was close to passing out she saw yellow spots on her hands)

W: Haha you are funny:)
I felt pretty good yesterday but not as great today. Yes I broke down and make an appt for Wed. I am looking forward to the blood work:(

I sometimes (often) worry about going so dim with her. She used to initiate conversations if I hadn't in a while, but now, she rarely if ever starts any convo and is pleasant but short when responding to me. The few times we've interacted in the last few weeks have been great though. And I think *she's* confused!

Sent her a bday card yesterday. Simple humorous one, with a generic, friendly message, but did sign it Love, Me.

My GAL activities are coming along well. Signed up for races in June, July and August. Also will be volunteering at our local art festival in a couple of weeks and may go to a party Friday night where I'll only know a few people. Definitely takes me out of my comfort zone.