I really appreciate your advice. It means alot to me that you are here giving me insightful advice. I hope you continue to watch my post. I feel that I know what I have to do in my mind. I need to detach. Let go of the rope.
My heart on the other hand wont let me. It is still in love with the old H. But truth of the matter is old H is gone. The only thing left is my idea of him. He isnt the husband that I knew and loved. He isnt the father that S knew and loved.
My head needs to win this battle for the sake of my sanity. I can and will do this. I dont want to be afraid to let him go anymore. I know I will always love him - that will never change. But I wont tolerate anyone treating me like this. I do deserve better. I am beautiful, kind, smart and loving. I deserve to love and be loved.
What a day! Very emotional one for me. Though no one would no it! I look sane but Im an emotional wreck. I dont want to be any longer.
Tonight I am going to work on goals. Im going to really start working on me. For me!
W - 31 H - 33 Married - 7 years Together - 10 yrs Kids - S 3yrs old Separated - 27/03/11 OW - 10/04/11
