Tryin to do what works

[NEmoose43]

I see that too 9, but I think a huge part of my sitch is having W see that I am willing to move past whatever happened with OM. And if I'm taking her at her word, she is still swearing up one side and down the other that nothing else has happened with him. I don't know for sure how she feels about him, and I know obsessing on that does nothing but hurt me and my efforts at DB.

One thing to note...I now know that there was no way anything physical happened with them the night that she stayed at his house this past week. With the discovery of W's kidney stone today...not to get graphic, but there's NO way anything happened with the condition she was in that night, I'll just leave it at that. Now does that mean that nothing has happened at all? Of course not, but it lends a little more credence to her story. Yes, she slept at another man's house, and she knows I won't stand for that, but still.

I don't know. Maybe I'm just being naive, but I want to believe her. Maybe it's me just trying to see the best in every part of this situation, but I really want to take her at her word. I KNOW this woman, and she is not a bad person. If she was or she didn't give a rip, wouldn't she have just told me there was something going on and that she wanted out to be with him?

Meh, I don't know. I do know it's pointless to try and understand a WAS, so I'm just thinking out loud here. I think it's still a little too fresh for me at this point. As my detachment continues, I have a feeling I'll get a better perspective on this. But I have moved past it. I have forgiven her because I know and have taken ownership of what I did that drove her to find solace with someone else, be it emotional or otherwise.

Unconditional love and patience...that's what I'm trying to give her, and I can only hope that she sees it.