Tad go back and read how desperate I was, I thought I would not survive. I lost my h and my only son went with him....basically everybody left me.
I use to drive by xh's house everyday and look at his myspace page. The deleted their page and that helped a great deal. Eventually I got busy and preoccupied myself and started detaching little by little.
I can tell u when u sit and do nothing ur mind wonders and u become more depressed. U have to make itself get up and going, if not for u or ur boys.

Don't talk relationship right now, u would only get ur feelings hurt.
Snodderly and jack, I think it was, told me to put a rubber band on my wrist and every time I wanted to call xh or talk to him....SNAP!

Prayers for u going up,
Renee


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M:42
H:40
S:18
M:20yrs/together 21yrs
Bomb:9/08 ILYBNILWY
Sep:9/18/08 "ow" :25
Filed:11/18/08
D:12/8/08
M:Different 26 yr. old 7/09.
Newborn 4/10