its 2am and here i am again after another arguement or me 'attackin' H as soon as he comes in according to him.
i really feel i cannot do this anymore, i dont want to give up but we are going nowhere.
i hate who i have become with H i'm so full of anger and i'm finding it hard to put on a front to the worl when i'm angry and hurt. I feel like telling everyone the truth of our situation but still can't as i know it will not get either of us anywhere but into a further bad place.
