when you have moved on

[forward]

X came by today to see D. I found myself realizing that I do not miss his constant criticism. I remembered planting a flower once and X found a way to criticize even that. This was before I really felt his MLC, too. I felt very beaten down by his constant criticisms and complaining. Even having him around now still makes me uncomfortable--his eruptions were very destructive to our R.

Still, there are times when I miss him, because when things were good they were very good. But today I was remembering the bad parts and when things were bad, they were pretty darn bad and I do not miss that person.

Bit by bit I find myself moving closer to New Guy. I feel as if we managed to work through one difficult point. We have now been together for a year. I see a future with him.