oh wow! While I didn't get the "Dear John" letter, I feel for you regarding the OM.

The emotions will be chaotic. It seems to start with numb, the sad, then angry, and then any mixture and blend as it stirs about inside you.

Use this board to vent any and all of it. Do NOT internalize it. Let it out. But let it out here, where it is safe and will not harm DB with your W.