I can see where you're coming from.
In the "Five Languages of Apology" some apologies are only acceptable with restoration or repair.

You are doing your damndest Denver to repair the damage, to make yourself a better man, to atone. Good on you for recognising your part in this.

Whether or not that is acceptable to your W, lies in her ability to forgive you and offer unconditional love in return.

Forgiveness does not mean forgetting, and she too has her part in this.

We make mistakes. We learn that way. Cut yourself some slack man.

BITS
Me-51, WAS-52
Kids 2
M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013
Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice.
Love is a action and choice you make, every day.