The Planet Of Fulfillment

[Busting Mode]

Me: 47
Ex-Wife: 42
Together: 4 1/2 years
Married: 8/9/10
She Filed for Divorce: 4/8/11

She said she wanted a divorce 2 months after we got married, so that means I've been diligently DBing since around 10/10/10.

7 months I have been at it, and today I received this email:

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Hello Michael

Thanks for the flowers and the cards for the kids and then of course for the wonderful words of admiration!
We had a good day although I worked the night before and the next 3 nights so not much time to sleep but I'm use to that!

I'm not sure how to tell you this so I'm just gonna blurt it out!

I unexpectedly met someone I really like I didn't feel the need to tell you right away because I didn't want to hurt you, but our friendship relationship has always been about honesty and trust so I feel it's necessary to let you know.
I'm sorry I know this will hurt you and it truly is not my intentions I just don't want you to have false hope about us.

I want you to find your true happiness and not waste time you deserve true happiness and the best that life has to offer!!

I know you will be ok and I have learned so much from you and from our relationship I thank you for that and for all the fun exciting things we have done and shared together. I want us to both be happy we deserve it!!

With all that said, I still have your things and not sure what you want me to do with them??

I will always love you and have a special place for you in my heart we will remain friends as well just best to be out of contact for now while we start this new life. Do you agree?

Love always L----

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Right now I am not in a place where I care to even explore my feelings about this let alone type them out - numb is the best word I can think but even that isn't really it...

However I did send her the following response, because the last time we spoke (a couple of weeks ago) I promised I would always be authentic in my communications with her instead of trying to control and direct things all the time. So I wrote back:

"Wow. Not sure how to respond to this right now other than to say you have always been my friend and I see no reason for that to stop now. When did you meet him?"

Not sure where that will lead or if she will even answer it, but I am actually thankful this inevitable day has finally arrived so that I can finally stop dreading it and begin moving past it.

I am not sure whether I will be available for her or not when this new guy somehow fails her as well (as I am believing will likely happen, but hey I could be wrong)...

But I know there is still enough of my feelings here to at least continue exploring and sharing some of it with you, so I guess I will just keep on posting now and to find out where it takes me.

"The pain is not there to hurt you. The pain is there to make you more aware." - Osho

Much love and blessings to you all,

Mike