Musclegal, I can understand how you're feeling...not that I've dated. It's something that you're doing that you thought you'd never have to do again. It brings back the hard fact that your m failed and how do you prevent that from ever happening again. No matter how wonderful a person may seem there's no guarantees that they won't cheat. That's what we live with when we've been betrayed by a trusted partner. So, don't be too hard on yourself, you're still doing some grieving and grief doesn't run on your timetable, it runs on it's own!