Her ultimate decision, and action on that decision, really had nothing to do with me in the end. It was all about her... her loneliness, her unhappiness, her fear of living a life of 'going through the motions' and without passion ... without excitement... without feeling wanted and loved.
It is good to have this compassionate outlook Denver. Because to a certain degree it is true.
Some of that is also HER responsibility. If you err...it seems to be on the side of punishing yourself for too much of this.
Falling on your sword...
That is for YOU to process.
... and her stuff when and if she is ready.
I probably do punish myself too much in all of this Gritter... lord knows I have punished myself a lot. But most of it IS true. I have a hard time finding what it is that she could have done better... other than to try something other than leaving me to fix things. But what that would have, or could have, been... I don't even know.
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce
