DG...This is how I look at all of this. I made my W miserable for so many years with my actions and behavior. I go back and forth as to what I want...Do I want to be with her...do I just want to let it go...It all comes down to how bad you want that person. For me, I want my W to be with me...I will go through the pain and hurt (what I put her through) for the CHANCE (cause it is just a chance, not a guarentee) that we can work things out someday. How long will I wait?? I don't know. My sitch is different as I will probably be divorced officially by the end of the week. I will have to live life and continue to change for me.
Will things get easier...Sure they will. But there will be ups and downs. I know what I want right now. Will my desires change over time?? I don't know. I suspect they will. But if you still have the fire in you, keep fighting for what you want. That doesn't mean you climb in a hole and wait. Go live life! You are going to miss him. But when you GAL, it's hard to think about it so much. You can do this DG...I believe in you. You ARE a strong woman.
