I was sure I responded last night, but the post hasn't come through, so maybe I messed it up. So here goes (again?).
DelinquentGurl - thank you so much. My friends just don't really understand. They think I should be hating him. I don't even dare mention that I want to save my marriage even still.
I wish I could afford counselling. I could really use it. H has insurance for him, but we were waiting on insurance for me next year.
And then there is the worry that he will lose is job over this (H is a manager over OW). He really is risking everything.
Boundaries are definitely an issue as evidenced by the kissing, etc. yesterday. Today I am trying to back off and distance myself.
I haven't even cried, yet. I am just dead inside other than stress/panic. He is with her right now, and my only reaction really is to miss him. I think something must be screwed up in me.
M: 32 H: 29 ILYBINILWY: 4/15/11 PA/EA discovered 5/6/11, began around 4/1/11 OW: 22 (21 when A began)
