Thanks Knittedscarff, I am feeling pretty bad today everthing kinda of just hit me hard last night. I think she feels the same way you do. I asked her if she could find a way to forgive me and allow me to earn her trust again. All she could say was "I don't know". I guess that is better than a flat "NO", but still not very incourageing. I get that I messed up and I owned up to it. I have been a faithful husband for 15 years and a good father. I made a horrible mistake and I took and awful risk, but do I deserve to lose everything, to be a weekend father? I think that is a bit harsh. Do I deserve to be the whipping boy .....yes of course. Do I deserve to be put through hell ....yes.
