I seem to be struggling more today. Sometimes I think that she really wants out and other times I think that she really has lost her frickin' mind.
I just want this all to end.
Tad
Tad,
I know you love your W, but what can you really do if she wants out??? NOTHING for her!! What can you do if she has really lost her frickin mind??? NOTHING for her!! What can you do for you? Just let go of her and focus on and your children. Pray for your W, but also for yourself and children. Be the sane person, the better parent and put your children first.
I know you don't want to hear this, but it can take YEARS before your W makes it through MLC and even then it is not a guarantee. You say you want it to all be over, but really only you can do this by letting go and focus on a new you and lifestyle. I firmly believe that God is going to restore my marriage, and I am going to stand for it as long as I live. But, I am going to live as if H is never coming back. I will love him unconditionally from a distance and continue on with my life as he is not coming back. It is painful, but I promise YOU have the ability to make a shift in your thought process to do the same. It is really a freeing experience. I still hurt and cry, I let it happen and then pick myself up by focusing on my thought process and change it. Emotions happen, but where we let them take us, is totally in our control. CHANGE where your thoughts are going, it take practice, practice and more practice. It is self-discipline like you have never experienced before, but everyone can do it, and you can do this!!! Be good and kind to yourself.
Blessins!
Lorie W47 H48 D16 M20 H gone 11/9/10 lives w/OW
When you forgive,you heal. When you let go,you grow. When you cry to God, you surrender. When you love unconditionally, you show others Christ's love.
