My sons prayer.....

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Albuquerque, I agree setting boundaries is tuff when you are so desperate to get your H back! One minute I feel fine, the next I am desperate to find ways to get him back. I feel saddened by these emotions. I know I need to dettach. I hear it. I read it. I know it. I just find it difficult to do.

This weekend was mothers day. It wasnt a great day. I picked my S up from MIL house. H decided that he wanted to watch S play soccer in the morning. S was not in a good mood and decided that he didnt want to play. Typical toddler. H got very frustrated like a rebellious teenager. He got so mad that he jumped in his car and left. Didnt even say goodbye. My S was visibly upset as was I. Old H would not have acted like this.

H rang in the afternoon to talk to S. S did not want to talk to him. H then proceeded to tell me that we (both) needed to be stricter with S. We needed to be consistant in our parenting. I started to get a bit defensive as I felt that he wasnt the one parenting as I was with S most of the time and he only has him for 1 night of the week. Then I quickly backtracked and validated his point. I agreed we needed to be on the same page. I said to do that we needed to become friends. He agreed. I also told him that I was upset by the way he was treating me lately. One minute he is nice. Next he isnt. He apologised for his behaviour.

I received a text from H during the night. He asked me to send him a copy of his CV. Said that he needed more money. So I guess he is looking for a new job. I sent him a copy and he said "thanks hon". This stumped me a bit so I didnt reply.

As previously stated everynight my son prays to GOD to bring his daddy home. Tonight I suggested instead of asking GOD to bring daddy home, he should ask GOD to look after daddy and make sure that he is safe and to let him know that we love him.

I received the text about H looking for a new job not long after that prayer. I know not to hope for things but I like to look on the positive side of life. I think H finding a new job could only be a good thing. For one thing it will get him away from crazy OW.


Also id like to ask for peoples opinion. During the week when H comes over to pick up S, we all end up going somewhere to do a fun activity, eg aqua golf. These outings have always been enjoyable and its almost like we are a normal family. Do i continue with these activities or do I just stop going and let S go alone with H? Currently living with my parents so H doesnt come in the house.