Thanks for the quick advice DelinquentGurl. It's just hard to do nothing in regards to working on us. I feel that i will just become a memory to her and if we dont hang out then she wont see the possibilities and positive growth that i feel i have undergone. I will take a back seat now and see where she drives this R and hopefully she will reach out for me.

I cant wait for the DR book to arrive so i can better understand what we are going through and what can be done. I've read other posts that have inspired me and some that were crushing and i could sympathize with.

I will keep updates on what transpires in the following days/weeks/months and gain support and advice from both side who have been there. Once i know what works or what to do, and better off not do, then i can make sure i am giving every opportunity for our R. I just want that chance, and i know i we wont need another.