Well did give in last night. I still think the physical contact of kissing and to ML helps the DB mode and hey, I slept better.
Text at 9:30am: Good morning, Happy Mothers Day to you! Let me know if there is anything I can get on my way over..thanks for our wonderful 4 kids, you are a great mommy! We are all lucky to have you. Me: Thanks for the acknowledgement.
H came over with dog, flowers for me and the food. I said "thanks for the flowers" and he said “Of course your welcome, you’re the mother of my children, I will always get you something no matter what.” Wasn’t really sure how to take that statement and it actually hurt a bit. So played with the dog and just hung out back soaking some sun. He finished cutting the grass and sat a bit with me and the dog too. Just sat, didn’t say much let alone anything of importance but I was enjoying the moment. He did say either day this weekend is fine to have the kids cause its not like he is on a dating spree. OK WTF! I didn't say or show any emotion.
When he was prepping dinner and all I said what can I do to help because I know he gets stressed. He said “Nothing, just sit there and look pretty”. Ok, that was weird. So when it was almost done I said what do we need left and he said "I got it, its less stress now that I have a puppy". Weird again. We had dinner as a family (well less D1) and he did the dishes. I said “I got it H” and he said “No its Mother’s Day I got it”. I again said thanks for the flowers that he didnt' have too and found out he went to a different store to get them from the steaks cause he knows how I prefer a different store's meat. I again don’t know what to think. We were outback after and he saw neighbors and went to them to show them the dog, Faith. Heard them say the heard we got a dog. Ok now if this isn’t his neighborhood now, what is he doing?
H left a little later of which in front of the kids he kissed my forehead and said “Happy Mothers Day” again. Ok, WTF again.
What does this all mean? I just have to let today be today, I know, but its so hard not to read into things. Is this progress or just 'more of the same'?
Ugh, what does anyone who reads this think? Am I over-analyzing?
H:41 W:44 D1:18 D2:16 S:12 D3:7 T:20 M:18 Bomb:1/5/11 Sep:2/18/11 No D filed yet; just threats
